i'm so confused

last post i talked about the basics of bipolar. but at this very moment, i don't know whether to cry my eyes out or to scream or to just be senile and say nothing while i try to figure out emotions in my head.

most of it has to do with guilt. true. but to be so comatose about the matter is what comes natural to me in a way. crying is a good 2nd option. the act of crying somehow makes someone feel better. but i don't have the energy or time to cry at the moment. to scream would get rid of all the anxiety that's building up in my stomach. i don't know what i'm anxious about, but it's there.

i'm so confused. i don't know what to feel or what to do about these feelings. i'm taking my meds like the doctor prescribed, but i don't know...

i think i might need to sleep.