So as I've been home i've been noticing that my parents are fighting more and more often. i remember a few years back that i noticed my dad throwing insults at me, but they're not as severe as what my mom is throwing at my dad.
mom says things to him like "you're doing a shit job," "you'll need a third job just to pay for milk," and "you never pay attention to anything!" it's painfully obvious that there's tension and it's rising every minute. he snapped back at her when she said "you're doing a shit job" by defending himself in a strong voice (one i have heard only when my brother and i were in real trouble or if he was royally pissed off). after that first attack i noticed, he hasn't been defending himself since. it makes me wonder really how much she insults him and tries to break him down, calling him things like "lazy," "pig," and "slob".
i fear that he's not defending himself only for the sole reason to save it up for that big moment when he goes off the deep-end. eventually he'll explode with all these insults, and considering the most recent dream i've had, i don't think it's going to end too well.
the dream/nightmare (whatever you want to call it) was my baby who overdosed on Anbesol turned into a cat overdosing on Anbesol. I was running around places where there were a lot of rocks and waterfalls. i figured that it had to be ithaca. the next part seems hazy, but i definitely remember teeth.
Teeth.
my friend's girlfriend told me how her family believes that if you have a dream about teeth, then someone close to you will die. she had told me the horror stories of dreams with teeth and then a few days later a friend would die. another story about the dream and her grandmother died. and then there was another story... going on and on, that's all the proof i needed to believe that it could be a possibility that dreams of teeth could be related to death. but why teeth? is it because teeth are a very intimate part of the body?
either way, it isn't looking good for my parents. i have a bad feeling that dad is spiraling into a depression or that he's going to kill himself after all these insults mom has been throwing him. mom, however, is completely oblivious that she's being mean to him.
i don't know what to do. i want to confront my dad about how mom makes him feel, but he might get the wrong idea and a divorce looms in the near future. i could talk to mom and ask her why she's being mean, but that would just make her restate her points (insults?) thus not getting anywhere close to a solution.
i need help
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ReplyDeleteThe best thing about dreams and dream interpretation is that it's not exact. Maybe talk to your mom about how she treats him...that might help.
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