music is my hot hot sex

ever have one of those feelings when you just get so emotional when you hear a piece of music?

so we had our school's winter band concert. it went really well, other than me running around all over the place. i played a whopping 9 songs altogether. i had to perform in the 2nd and 3rd groups. in the 2nd group (symphonic winds) i played Bb clarinet and in the 3rd group (wind ensemble) i played the bass clarinet.

while i was playing, i felt emotion. real, true emotion. it was like, all my troubles went away and i got so involved with the piece that nothing else mattered. the wind ensemble went onstage and we started playing Shenandoah, which was written for a kid who was in band and committed suicide. his favorite piece was this song, Shenandoah. when the wind ensemble played it, i nearly started crying because it made me think if anyone would write a piece for band for my ex-girlfriend who took her own life.

when music reaches out to people like that, that is real music. it is supposed to be emotional, it's supposed to tell a story, supposed to have a purpose. most music is dedicated to people in their memory, or they're commissioned by a band or orchestra. our school had (i think) 3 pieces dedicated to us, all were inspired by different things, but i couldn't feel the emotional human element in those pieces.

basically. the concert tonight was very emotional. i felt happy when we played a piece that was upbeat and fast. i felt emotional when we played a slow, sad piece. it felt really good to be able to feel emotions while playing.